From now on, please don’t associate me with her anymore.
“Sorry. But I really have to get this off my mind. From the look of things, I think that Derrick does have feelings for you. From a guy’s perspective, it’s really very obvious. If you feel really comfortable being with him rather than me then don’t keep him waiting else he would one day end up like me, just another normal friend with no more topic to talk about. After almost a year of trying, I think its finally time i stop bothering you. Even after spending so much time together I still can’t attain that level of closeness you and him have. This really shows that its impossible between the both of us to go beyond just being friends, but that guy i can see that he stands a chance, so don’t waste it, i can see that he’s a good guy too. I hope you won’t ever talk to me again. Not because i don’t want to be friends with you, but cutting off contact is the only way i can forget my feelings for you. I hope you understand. You might find this rather random, but you don’t share the feelings i have towards you and you don’t know how hard it is for me every night wishing that i can be as close to you as derrick is. This is goodbye. Please don’t reply..”
Well so this is it, the ‘official’ over her thing, this is it.That’s what i sms-ed her. I can’t be seeing her all the time, and having the feelings inside of me all fucked up whenever i see her with that guy, it just messes my day up. Thats the only way to completely stop that feeling, and too bad we can’t even be friends anymore, because just one glance or one touch would make the feelings all resurface. Well it isn’t my loss, i’m just not being appreciated. You can say whatever you want on your blog(the last time i’m gonna read it) that you’re just like any other normal girl and you’re not who i think you are, but seriously, YOU ARE WHAT YOU ARE. Your actions, your words, your naive, it just reflects who you really are in my eyes. And looking back, i don’t really see that i’ve made any mistakes or dissapoint you or make you sad, all i’ve ever do is just being me.
Random really. I know sooner or later you’re just gonna sms me some random shit with no fucking meaning whatsoever and i don’t want to think WHAT ARE YOU THINKING anymore, so let that end everything once and for all.
Well thats it. And guess what, she saw me from a distance today, and she RAN away from me. I’m the monster now. How rude of her.
